Wow! I just can’t fathom that it’s Thanksgiving already.
Is it just me feeling the slow march of time, as in a lot of years lived on this earth creeping up on me faster and faster – putting the calender in higher and higher gear? Whatever it is, or isn’t, it’s still Thanksgiving. For many of us it’s just “turkey day.” You know, time to hang out with the family and maybe, if we’re able or even lucky at this point, gorge ourselves on a lot of food and watch football or enjoy other holiday traditions.
Sadly, for an increasing number of us who might be displaced, dispossessed, or homeless, it’s a rather depressing day. I spent a lot of Thanksgivings away from my family because of military obligations, and later, television news schedules in the various markets I worked. Since I was single and wasn’t working anywhere near my hometown, I always volunteered to work Thanksgiving or Christmas, or both. While in the military, if I was deployed or away from home, I always volunteered to visit an orphanage. Lord knows in too many of those countries there were enough orphanages to visit every single holiday.
In the news biz it was far different, as you’d expect. There was always the “typical” thanksgiving day story – the food banks and shelters, or something related to it. Hell it got to the point where reporting those stories became disturbingly similar to painting by numbers. “Bam,” show up, get three or four soundbites; write the narrative , do your live shot(s) and go home. But, one particular thanksgiving in Indianapolis in 2000 really left me teary eyed.
My photographer that day, Steve, and I felt ambitious. We decided to go out early that morning. In the military we’d call it “o-dark early,” like around 4:30 am. It was a cold day. Colder than usual, even for near-winter Indiana as a fierce wind blew across the Indiana plains through Indianapolis carrying a bone chilling 28 degree mercury reading with it. Steve and I braved our way into one of the, not too easily concealed, homeless camps on the edge of downtown.
As you’d expect we were met with a mixture of jeers, hostility, curiosity and, surprisingly – affability, when we told everyone we’re going to ensure they would all eat some good turkey-day chow. It was a promise we intended to keep as we convinced the station to significantly up its allotment of humble, as in institutionally-catered, thanksgiving meals they bring in for the holiday staff so we’d have at least 25 extra servings for these homeless folks. And, that was a mildly conservative estimate.
But, we wanted to realistically, without resorting to the typical local news reporting bombastic hyperbole, chronicle Thanksgiving on the cold, unforgiving streets. We really, sincerely, aimed to provide a humbling juxtaposition for the majority of our comfortably ensconced viewers enjoying the voluminous bounties of our land. Bounty, that is, if you aren’t homeless and make a salary considerably above the poverty line.
Looking back on it, it was kind of easy for us to hang there and form an easy rapport with the homeless rank and file. Steve and I are both quite used to roughing it. I had recently re-deployed from an active reserve tour in Bosnia where I had to deal with my fair share of mass grave discoveries – the gruesome aftermath of war gone completely, unabashedly, mad. For his part, Steve was one of the station’s hardiest and most danger seeking videographers. He was the guy always out chasing tornados, of which there are many in Indiana. He mostly worked solo, because he had this crazy tendency to get really, many would say, sickeningly close to them. He invariably scared the crap out of a lot of unsuspecting rookie reporters who didn’t know what exactly they were in for.
I know first hand, because my first month there that unsuspecting rookie reporter was me. And, man, let me tell you, you haven’t lived until a tree hurtles across your windshield while the vehicle is rolling back and forth like a ship on an ocean with the angriest, darkest, fiercest-looking funnel cloud flirting disastrously close with your butt. It was that moment, though, Steve and I measured each other and bonded in a way Soldiers, or a news crew knee-deep in life threatening danger, often, and quite easily do.
So, hanging with some homeless folks, even those who invariably have significant mental health issues, was really no big deal. But, we approached our work with an altruistic heart and a sincere journalistic desire to inform; telling the story of those who really are powerless to advocate on their own behalf. This, even though we were vividly aware of the fine line we were walking. It’s easy to accuse journalists – especially television journalists of crass exploitation. Hell, that’s what a lot of TV reporting is based on after all.
In short, we produced a tear jerker of a piece. Our goal was to make our viewers stop and take pause. At the very least, we wanted them to take inventory of not just their lives, situations and blessings as well as those of the people orbiting around their personal circles, but of the general state of society. We wanted them to consciously ponder, while they were stuffing bite after bite down their throats, how in the greatest, so-called wealthiest country on earth, hundreds of thousands of other human beings, regardless of the circumstances that made them homeless – and hungry, could live like that. Live in that sad and dangerous state of deprivation, on a holiday that not just represented great bounty, but unashamedly celebrated it.
I know what it’s like to be that way… Not just for the six or seven hours we spent “living homeless” that cold morning. You see, I was homeless once in my life . I was a naively obstinate 17-year old punk kid who ran away from home in my senior year of high school. I was fed up and disillusioned. I was sick of the football and track coaches. Sick of my school. Sick of my teachers and sick of the students, 98 percent of them white South Jersey hicks, who nick-named my bohemian mixed-race ass “hippie nigger.” And, above all I was sick of my mom and dad who, in my adolescent hormone-jet fueled psyche, had the audacity to move ME from my cool, familiar, environs in THE CITY to hick-ass pine tree laden South Jersey, as in Ocean County, New Jersey. And, yes, it wasn’t far from the coast and beaches which many people realize are kind of cool for the East Coast. But, to me I might as well had been moved down south – like Dixie South. Well, eventually my parents got sick of South Jersey too, since they moved to Seattle afterward. But, it wasn’t soon enough for me.
After what was probably my upteenth tantrum, and whining about being too far from New York, my dad uttered those now immortal words, “If you don’t like it, then go!” So, I did, actually. That was two weeks before Thanksgiving. But, I remember that Thanksgiving all too well. Homeless, scrounging for food and shelter on the cold hard streets. Damn! An education for sure. One you can’t buy, but one simply you have to live.
It didn’t stop there, though. I spent Christmas on the run too, but wound up with a friend I met who took me home for a week. He told his parents I was a college student from California who couldn’t afford to go back for Christmas break. They eventually got suspicious when, despite their incessant worrying and prodding, I refused to call my parents for Christmas. They wound up calling the police and I was soon on my way back home to South Jersey.
That experience obviously stayed with me and helped shape the person I eventually grew into, for good and for worse.
So, as I sit here and reflect on my bounties this Thanksgiving, I realize I have so much to be thankful for. I have my health and I survived a substantial military career, including several rough deployments and a war, in one piece. My beautiful daughter married a very cool guy. My parents, though with my dad in questionable, if not slowly failing, health are still here on this earth. I have three great sisters and two wonderful nephews who are becoming men in their own right.
My Soldiers, in the unit I was placed in charge of before I left the Army, successfully completed a long tour attached to Special Forces Groups in Afghanistan. This, despite some harrowing incidents and firefights. They’re home and moving on with their lives, goals and careers.
I have a radio show and I continue to help people, and journalistically advocate for those who aren’t able to do so easily on their own.
So, here’s to you! Happy Thanksgiving. May you be thankful for what’s really important to you. And, may you share your bounty, whatever it may be, with the world around you.

A New Year/Decade Reflection- Taken from Jan. 3rd, “Soul of Seattle” New Year Show
*NOTE* I pasted this from my show script, which was written in “broadcast” style, hence the “all caps” type…
THIS IS THE FIRST “SOUL OF SEATTLE” COMMENTARY IN A VERY LONG TIME. ACTUALLY, BY MY CALCULATIONS I HAVEN’T DONE A COMMENTARY SINCE THE SUMMER; BUT AS THE OLD PHRASE GOES THERE’S NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT AND ISN’T THAT THE TRUTH ON SO MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS, ESPECIALLY NOW?
LIKE MANY OF US, I TOOK TIME OUT TO REFLECT ON THE PASSING OF THE OLD YEAR -2009- AND THE DAWNING OF 2010… THE SECOND DECADE IN THE 21ST CENTURY IN THIS STILL VERY NEW MILLENNIUM. AND, I WONDER EXACTLY WHERE IS IT WE – AS IN THE HUMAN RACE AND PLANET EARTH… WHERE EXACTLY ARE WE HEADED. I KNOW IT SOUNDS ESOTERIC, BUT, PLEASE BEAR WITH ME.
AS THEY SAY, PAST IS PROLOGUE AND ALTHOUGH I’M AN INCURABLE OPTIMIST, AND A ROMANTIC FOR THAT MATTER, I’M HAPPY AS HELL TO SAY GOODBYE TO ESPECIALLY THIS PAST DECADE – WHICH FOR ME BEGAN IN A RATHER FOREBODING WAY.
I WAS PART OF A BEEFED UP GUARD DETAIL AT EAGLE BASE IN TUZLA, BOSNIA AT THE TIME.
YOU REMEMBER THE MEDIA-WHIPPED Y-2-K HYSTERIA IN 1999? WELL, AS A RESERVIST CALLED UP FOR A TOUR IN BOSNIA, I WAS NOT ONLY CONCEREND ABOUT THAT, BECAUSE THE ARMY AND MEDIA SAID WE SHOULD BE CONCERNED, BUT WE WERE ALSO WORRIED ABOUT THE THREATS AGAINST OUR BASE. THESE WERE NEBULOUS THREATS THAT “INTELLIGENCE,” AND I USE THAT WORD IN QUOTES FOR OBVIOUS REASONS, RECEIVED FROM THE LIKES OF SERBIAN AND MUSLIM EXTREMISTS. WELL, EXCEPT FOR SOME POT SHOTS TAKEN AT THE PERIMETER FROM A RELATIVELY COMFORTABLE DISTANCE, THOSE THREATS DIDN’T MATERIALZE AND THE WORLD WAS NOT DESTROYED BY A MASSIVE COMPUTER MELTDOWN WHEN THE ATOMIC CLOCK STRUCK 2000!
BUT, THAT DIDN’T STOP US FROM GRADUALLY DESCENDING INTO A LONG-DARK TUNNEL OF NIGHTMARISH PROPORTIONS; NIGHTMARISH FOR THOSE OF US WHO REALLY CARE ABOUT THE WORLD, AS WELL AS OUR COMMUNITIES, AND OUR NATION.
2000 SAW THE ELECTION, UH-UM, ACTUALLY THE APPOINTMENT OF GEORGE W. BUSH… OUR VERY OWN NERO IF AMERICA COULD BE CALLED A MODERN DAY ROMAN EMPIRE… AND METAPHORICALLY HE SEEMED TO BE OBSESSED WITH PLAYING HIS FIDDLE, WHILE USING THE CALAMITY OF 9-11 AS HIS MUSE, USHERING IN A PERIOD OF FEAR, LOATHING, GREED AND WAR – WAR WITHOUT END, AS IT SEEMS NOW.
AND, INSATIABLE GREED AND LUST FOR LUXURY AND FAME THAT NEARLY SENT OUR WORLD ECONOMY CRASHING INTO A DEEP INESCAPABLE DEPRESSION. AS IT TURNS OUT IT’S A DEEP RECESSION… BUT FOR MANY OF US WHAT’S THE DAMN DIFFERENCE.
FOR ME, THAT TURN OF THE CENTURY TOUR IN THE BALKANS WAS JUST A WARM UP. IT WAS PRE-SEASON IF YOU WILL AS I EVENTIALLY FOUND MYSELF, ALWAYS THE GOOD SOLDIER, BACK IN THE GAME. THIS TIME THE BIG GAME – BACK FOR A WHOLE LOT MORE – MORE WAR, MORE FEAR, MORE UNCERTAINTY FOR ALL OF US… IN WHAT SEEMED TO BE AN INCREASINGLY WEIRDER AND WEIRDER TIME.
AND THEN LAST YEAR WE SAW A GLIMMER OF HOPE, IN THE GUISE OF A YOUNG, DYNAMIC, PRESIDENT CUT FROM A FAR DIFFERENT CLOTH OF THE LIKES AMERICA HAS NEVER SEEN BEFORE. A BLACK MAN, THOUGH MANY PEOPLE SEEM TO CONVENIENTLY IGNORE HIS BI-RACIAL CAUCASION-AFRICAN GENETIC MAKEUP. A LEADER, THOUGH, WITH A FOREIGN NAME – A MAN COLORED SEVERAL SHADES DARKER THAN THE ERSTWHILE PRESIDENTIAL ARCHETYPE.
BUT, HE SEEMED TO SPEAK SENSE IN BOLD AND STARK WAYS – IN A MANNER THAT SEEMED TO BE SORELY MISSING FROM THE NATIONAL POLITICAL DISCOURSE DURING THE BUSH YEARS.
AND, WE LISTENED. AND, THEN WE HOPED SOME MORE.
I WAS BESIDE MYSELF, AND RATHER NAIVELY IN SOME WAYS AT THAT… AS I, AND WE, SOON DISCOVERED DESPITE THIS CHANGE AT THE TOP WE, AND YES, OBAMA, STILL FACED THE SAME OLD PROBLEMS EXACERBATED EXPONENTIALLY BY THE POLICIES OF THE PAST AND THE ARROGANCE OF THE IGNORANCE OF THOSE WHO STILL SEE THE WORLD IN TERMS OF BLACK AND WHITE, US AND THEM, BIGGER IS BETTER, OIL IS GOOD, HAVE AND HAVE NOT, AS IN WE HAVE IT AND WE WANT IT ALL AND WE’RE RIGHT AND EVERYONE ELSE IS WRONG.
AND, EVEN MORE DISTURBINGLY, IT’S THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE RISEN UP CLAIMING EVERYONE ELSE IS SENDING THIS COUNTRY TO HELL… SAY NOTHING OF THE WORLD.
IT IS FOR THESE PEOPLE WHOM SARAH PALIN, FOR ONE, IS A DEMIGOD. SHE, THE MASTER OF DEMAGOGUERY, THE CUNNING OPPORTUNIST, WHO SEES MORE WISDOM IN CHASING THE INCREASINGLY NOT SO ALMIGHTY DOLLAR WHEN COMPARED TO THE EURO THESES DAYS, THAN EDUCATING HERSELF AND HER FLOCK ON THE TRUE NATURE OF CLIMATE CHANGE AND ITS INEXPLICABLE RELATIONSHIP WITH OUR INDUSTRIALIZED SOCIETY’S DOOMED LOVE AFFAIR WITH FOSSIL FUELS AND NON-RENEWABLE ENERGY. BUT, WHAT DOES SHE CARE SINCE IN HER RELIGOUSNESS, AND THE EVIDENCE WE’VE SEEN OF IT, SHE AND A DISTURBINGLY LARGE PERCENTAGE OF OTHERS IN AMERICA SEEM CONVINCED THE WORLD’S APOCOLYPTIC EXPIRATION DATE IS COMING UP PRETTY SOON. SO,WHY PANIC THEY MIGHT SAY? JUST SIT BACK AND ENJOY THE SPOILS, EVEN THOUGH FROM WHAT I REMEMBER OF THE NEW TESTAMENT JESUS PREACHED A FAR DIFFERENT SERMON.
SO, IT IS REALLY UP TO US… THOSE OF US WHO REALLY CARE AND WHO ARE CONTEMPLATIVE IN OUR QUEST FOR KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING IN OUR WORLD’S INCREASINGLY COMPLICATED TIMES; TO BE OUR BROTHER AND SISTER’S KEEPER NO MATTER HOW IGNORANT OR DIFFICULT THEY MAY BE… TO BE THE STEWARDS OF OUR ENVIRONMENT, AS WE ARE AS MUCH PART OF THE EARTH AS THE EARTH IS PART OF US… TO BE THE CARETAKER OF OUR NEIGHBORS ON THIS PLANET – AS IN ITS DISTURBINGLY DECREASING FLORA AND FUANA.
AS THOM HARTMANN SO ELOQUENTLY POINTS OUT IN HIS RECENT BOOK – “THRESHOLD,” WE ARE QUICKLY RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
SO, IN THIS NEW YEAR I RESOLVE MYSELF TO PRACTICE MORE COMMUNITY, AND ECO, AND SMALL BUSINESS SUSTAINABILITY.
I RESOLVE TO BE MORE KIND AND LOVING… TO REACH OUT MY HAND AND HELP OTHERS NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT AND UNCOMFORTABLE IT MIGHT BE.
I HOPE TO JOIN HANDS WITH YOU IN THIS REGARD, BECAUSE TOGETHER WE CAN SHOW THIS COUNTRY AND THE WORLD THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TOO LITTLE…
UNTIL IT BECOMES – GOD FORBID – TOO LATE.
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